My thinking from scholarship

421061930@qq.com(boy) — Tue, 14 Oct 2008 13:35:05 GMT

I don’t know how to describe my life since now. It may be considered as a failure by someone, but not total failure at all I bet. I will get my scholarship in Shi’nan high school this Sunday. It is for praising my hard working in senior high three; although I’ve just been there only several times asking questions that I can’t solve myself.
Reviewing my failure in the senior high school entrance examination, I was at the bottom of the world for a period. I did something that cannot be forgiven, for a meaningless girl that I “loved” in junior high three. To be frank, I don’t regard it as “love” in my present concept. Anyway, whether others believe it or not, I disobeyed my own rational style three years before. I valued myself as an “absolutely rational thinker” as some abnormal philosophers in junior high three. But I still cannot control my own conceited mentality at that time and then “fall in love with a girl”. Actually I could not understand what love is, or what the world is because I was so green. The world is so cruel that I cannot arrange everything by my own willing. I have to admit that there’s something that beyond my ability – that’s the sentence I hated most to say before, even now I still try to avoid this sentence. Objectively, that girl really taught me a lot. To some extent I should thank her. My devotion ended up by the failure of senior high school entrance examination at last as everyone had seen.
Then it was a three-yeared depression both in my subjects and my emotional world. I felt useless and helpless when I realized my silly performance in my illusion about that girl. No sooner I began to establish a goal that I must or have to be a success to dissolve my bitter feeling. At last, undoubtedly, I still failed to achieve such a magnificent goal. Although I tried my best to get as close to it as I can, I still failed. The failure I cannot repudiate, but I make it a better situation, a better horizon than that I stand three years before.
The situation will be alright—that’s what I was told most frequently. I will take my scholarship this Sunday as well as I am a hopeful one in the intermediate interpretation course, a monitor of a class and, maybe a great rap or metal singer in the future. Whether the last one—great singer—will come true or not, it is still fair for me because I maintained former two.
Now I am facing a great challenge. The advanced mathematic test will be hold on next Wednesday. My credit score is forced to be kept at least 3.5. I am required to get a score more than 85 in first test is almost impossible. In my opinion before I can only pass the test under the god’s bless. But this time, I realized that I can rely on no one or nothing.
At last, I will do my best to forget the failure 3 years before. I will have to do so, or I will still trap myself in a narrow sense.
I trust myself.

中国人与扔垃圾

421061930@qq.com(boy) — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 14:41:39 GMT

中国人，乃是世界上最会扔垃圾的民族。根据有关数据，近年来，我国垃圾以年均10%的速度增长，仅2000年的垃圾产量就达1.4亿吨，预计到2010年垃圾产量约达2亿吨。而事实上，中国人不是只追求数量，在垃圾的艺术性上，更是到了令那些以“环保”自诩的欧美国家难以望其项背的境界。
最近在电影院里打工，对于我们的散文家们的话可谓佩服得五体投地——我们中国人果然是世界上最爱美的民族。情侣厅中遍地的爆米花与厅的背景色调交相辉映，有结成块整个从盒子里掉出来的、被踩瘪的、被踩碎的，诚可谓“忽如一夜春风来，千盒万包米花开”，这是多么美妙的境界！在那里扫这些爆米花还实在有一种破坏艺术品的罪恶感，尽管这是一项糟糕透顶的工作。
在这里我认为还有必要在讲讲我所见到的最不可思议的三件艺术品。第一件是一件动态艺术品，命名为《藕断丝连》。单位里规定，所有瓶子都要受起来放在垃圾桶里卖掉，因此所有的瓶子必须分开收集。那次见到一个包裹着一张蓝色广告纸的农夫山泉瓶子，表面上看并没什么，但是当我为了收集瓶子而移走广告纸是却发现里面一大坨的口香糖藕断丝连般地粘连着，还散发着可想而知的味道，当时心里一阵恼火就干脆把《藕断丝连》和垃圾扔一起了。第二件的名字是《体温可乐杯》，那件艺术品所针对的是感官，也就是现在比较流行前卫的感官艺术。那次我在清理垃圾的时候正习惯性地从扶手上拿瓶瓶罐罐时，突然觉得有一个电影院卖品部的可乐杯比较奇怪，里面有2/3是满的，首先先认为这个人很有钱，但是半秒后突然感到奇怪：1.卖品部里好像不卖热饮；2.谁这么大热天捧着热饮跑到电影院看电影？由此得出两个推测：1.此液体一定为无色偏黄到黄色；2.此液体挥发一定有一股骚味。当然这只是推测，我没敢打开看。最后一件艺术品也新潮一点，我给它命名为（《尖叫之冰》），是一杯街客橙味沙冰，按理说，街客的封口质量应该不错，但是这杯沙冰还是不可避免地成了一件艺术品。就艺术而言，这件作品只是利用一种视觉反差——蓝色背景与橙色——而形成的美感。当时这杯沙冰的杯子正立在地上而它周围却是一圈打翻的沙冰，杯子拿走后沙冰映入蓝色的地毯，当中留下一圈映记，简直是吸血鬼的气质的金属封面。后来没办法问卖品部借毛巾，清理完后还给卖品部，值班的那位先是一脸迷茫瞥了我一眼，后来就逐渐露出杀人的眼神了……
别的“艺术品”自然有很多，再一一例举恐怕都说不完，而且大多都大同小异。现在上面强调精神文明迎奥运，下面还是不断创造艺术品，真是特别的搞笑，有的人还会理直气壮：我要是不扔垃圾你们都没工作了！国民素质如此也难怪第三产业如此之兴旺发达！
该说的都说了，就此打住。虽然都是真事，但仅供娱乐而已。